Many people can relate to saying something completely obnoxious while sippin' on the sauce. They get a little out of control, pass out in their clothes and wake up the next morning with crusty eyes, cotton mouth and drinker's remorse. But most people don't have to watch their inappropriate behavior unfold on national TV.
Laurel knows she can't take back the cruel things she said to Big Easy on tonight's episode of "Cutthroat," but she couldn't be filled with more regret. She wants Eric, as well as everyone who watches the show, to know that she is deeply sorry. She even stopped by our studio last week to record this filmed apology. Take a look at the video from her visit, plus after the jump, read the heartfelt message she recently posted on Facebook.
"I feel that I need to say this because I know that a lot of people watch the show, some of which are younger and still impressionable. This message is to those of you out there who have looked up to me or who might still do and also to anyone who might happen to watch. I want everyone to know that the way that I act in Episode 3 of "Cutthroat," which will air on Wednesday, October 20 at 10pm on MTV is NOT RIGHT. It is inexcusable and I don't think anyone should act that way. I am embarrassed by that behavior and that is not how I want to be. I have apologized to Eric, but that is up to him whether or not he will forgive me for what I said. It does not feel good to be mean to someone. I do not want to be mean and I do not want to judge anyone's exterior. It is not up to me to judge anyone period, but that night I acted terribly and was mean to Eric. I am sorry for that and I hope that no one will act in that way or use that as an excuse to act that way because I did so. My second apology is to all of my fans. I'm sorry guys. That was terrible. It was then in the house, and it is again now that it's airing.
The only positive thing about this is that I am able to see characteristics of myself that I do not like and change them. I will never act that way again and I have learned a valuable lesson. Yes, I am outspoken and a tough bitch, but there is a limit and I went too far. I have said it multiple times already, while filming, in interviews, but I am going to say it again. Eric, I am sorry for what I said to you. It was terrible and rude and not okay. Please do not take that moment as an example of how to act.
I've also realized that beauty is not about what you look like. Beauty is kindness, doing good for others, those moments that touch your heart when someone does something nice. Anyone can be beautiful. There are pretty faces and then there are beautiful people. And a beautiful person can be any height, age, shape, size or color. I want to be my most beautiful self. And I will not reach that potential by being mean to others."
Laurel