Amber's Diary: I Apologized To Gary 'For The Sake Of My Family'

All of our Teen Moms kept a personal diary throughout filming, and with their consent, we're sharing relevant entries after each week's episode airs. Below, Amber shares her confusion and disappointment over the demise of her relationship with Gary...

I don’t feel like I have any support from Gary. I really don’t understand why he isn’t stepping up the way I want him to. Maybe he just doesn’t care about me, or doesn’t care about what I'm trying to do with my life. I think Gary might only care about himself. He signed up for school right when I signed up without even thinking about me! What about my chance at a GED? When will I get my time to study?

Gary is the main source of my anxiety. He's supposed to be the person I am closest to, but he isn't there for me mentally, physically or emotionally. He feels like if he pays the bills, then that’s all he needs to do. He's being selfish, and isn't being much of a father to Leah.

The fight Gary and I got into was by far the worst fight we’ve ever had. At that moment, I retaliated back because of what Gary said to my dad. I was simply defending my father and didn’t know what Gary was thinking at all. I only apologized for the sake of my family. Everything I do is for Leah.

I don’t believe Gary when he tells me he'll be there for me because he hasn’t been there for me in four years. A big problem with him is that he won’t show his emotions or tell me what is wrong. If Gary would just keep me in the loop about what he's feeling, we could maybe fix the situation –- but he isn’t opening up to me at all. It seems like he doesn’t care about the relationship anymore, and he definitely isn’t putting his whole heart into it. There's a huge lack of effort.

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