Amber's Teen Mom Diary: Now 'I Realize I'm Not Dumb'

All of our Teen Moms kept a personal diary throughout filming, and with their consent, we're sharing relevant entries after each week's episode airs. Below, Amber describes how great it felt to hear that she'd scored high on the GED placement test -- as well as how lousy it felt not to have Gary's support while she was trying to study...

I found out the results of my GED placement test, and they were really good! I'm surprised but also so relieved and happy because now I realize I'm not dumb. I haven’t been in school for such a long time, and it turns out that I'm at a college level. It makes me think, "Wow, I could actually do this and get going with my career." I am so anxious to get started. Hearing my results boosts my confidence a lot –- and makes me realize that I shouldn’t listen to other people.

It's important for me to get my GED because I have to take care of my daughter and ensure she has a good life. I didn’t exactly have money when I was growing up, and I don’t want Leah to go through that as well. But I also want her to be grounded and know that everything is not going to be handed to her. Life isn’t always roses. No matter what, Leah won't have any surprises when she is older because I’ll let her know that you have to work for everything. She will get her high school diploma and will not be on the same track as me. I was a bad kid, so I know this is important.

Unfortunately, Gary has put more stress on me than I need at this time. He hasn't been there for me, even though I'm the one watching Leah. There's always some excuse for why he can't help.

Gary taking care of Leah more would help so much because I could study for at least 30 – 40 minutes. I want him to talk to me, love me and help me like I helped him with his homework. I used to highlight things in his school books to help him study! I would even read chapters for him. I really wish Gary was there for me more....

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