Amber's Diary: 'I Love Gary, But He Doesn't Always Understand'

All of our Teen Moms kept a personal diary throughout filming, and with their consent, we'll be sharing relevant entries after each week's episode airs. Below, Amber explains how she knew she was depressed, and why Gary wasn't helping matters...

After 16 and Pregnant stopped taping, I felt like Gary became different -- like he didn’t want to be a part of my life. We broke up for two months, and I was living at my mom’s place, but he kept coming by every night to pick up Leah and stuff. Eventually, he came over over and did some sweet-talking, and we got back together. We moved into a new house, but because I was taking care of the baby and he was paying the bills, he got to make the decision about where we should live. I don't think that’s how it should've been.

Gary's been scared that I'm going to leave him, so basically I spend every day at home and taking care of Leah, never doing anything else. Our relationship just isn’t as strong anymore.

I know that I'm depressed because I don’t want to get up in the morning. I don’t have any energy. I feel lonely, even though Gary is here. When I told him about my anxiety and depression, he just brushed it off completely and didn’t even seem to care. He didn’t believe anything and just kept saying, "Oh … you’ll be fine." The way that he's reacting is making me feel even more depressed because there's really nobody here to help me. I love Gary, but he doesn’t always understand.

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