Throughout this season of Styl'D, the junior assistants will be watching each episode and blogging about their reactions. Below, check out Janna's first post...
Growing up in a small town, I watched as my friends enjoyed parties in their parents' garages or got drunk at the local Irish Pub where I used to work. My friends all seemed happy, but I just felt like I didn't belong. From the time I was a young girl, I dreamed of having a career in fashion, but dreams in the fashion industry don't come true in small towns like Temecula. So I moved to L.A. -- one of the most exciting and scariest moments of my entire life -- and enrolled in FIDM.
Everyone comes to L.A. for a reason, and my reason was to work in the fashion industry. Being chosen for the Junior Assistant Program with the Margaret Maldonado Agency was beyond surreal. To say it was my dream to work with a top agency is an understatement. Still, working with a top stylist was sometimes a nerve-racking experience: constantly questioning every decision I made, not having the confidence to fight for what I believed in ... not always having a voice. It was also difficult to be thrown in with three other people who I didn't know and wasn't sure I could trust.
Watching myself in the first episode, I have a few regrets. I wish I'd handled the situation with Brett better. I so admired Brett for taking a risk and making things happen, but at the same time, I got nervous thinking I could get in trouble and have this whole opportunity blow up in my face.
That said, I know that I'm destined to be in the fashion industry and I hope through the mistakes that I've made (and will probably continue to make) that my style and voice will be heard.
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